This was such a gorgeous sunset over the fields of delafield The three pirates have been re-united once more. I can't even find the words to explain just how great it is to be with them again- and at the same time! Tonight we ate a very (filling) American meal for my little foreigners. Mom grilled some burgers, some corn on the cob, some french fries and a very green salad. All was delicious as usual, and now my stomach feels it's pain. I am getting so big! gah!
After our giant meals we needed some quality couch time, you know, to let everything settle- and whats better that to watch Troy?!?! Afterall, this is mine and Karin's tradition, and Maud's first time watching it.Pour little frenchie, she is still sick from me. I feel awful! She leaves for France this saturday already and Karin is next week. And Emily leaves for school early (early early early) wed. morning. The family is driving out with her and I am so torn if whether or not i should go. I've waited three years to see my pirates, but at the same time I haven't seen Matt for the longest time and I'm not ready to say goodbye to Emily yet. ...I'm never ready to say goodbye, it truly is the hardest thing for me. So now I'm at a cross, do I say goodbye now or extend our adventures? Ah, decisions, decisions.
So Nana had to go back to the hospital today. I'm so scared. I don't like to admit it, for reasons I'm unsure of. I guess what I want is to stay strong for the family-especially for dad.... I'm also in denial of anything being wrong. My mind is just incapable of grasping the severity of her illness. why is it that in life we must be confronted with such hardship? Does it really make us stronger? All I feel is small, weak, and useless. I don't who is reading this, or if anyone is for that matter, but whoever you are... can you please pray for Nana? Pray for her health, and comfort and the strength of my family.
As I struggle with these thoughts, Kadyn came up to cuddle at my side. He brings such comfort into my life. Being home is so good, I'm free from my insomniac-self, and surrounded by my family. I'm so blessed. I really am, and I never tell them how much they mean to me, at least not as often as I should. I need to change this. I have definitely learned over the past years, that life is much too short. Too short to fight over the little things.
Maud andKarin, and all the house is asleep. Everyone but Kadyn and I that is. The poor little guy, he's so tired, but he won't sleep till every last person in the house is silently sleeping. Unfortunately for him, I don't plan on sleeping anytime soon. The two of us are just sitting on the cold kitchen floor, of all places, wrapped up in quilt and a warm coffee at hand. I'm thinking of moving to the deck once I wrap this up, just to enjoy the night sky. Earlier in the week, Maud and I went over to Andy's house and we layed out on the lawn watching the meteor shower. I had always wanted to see one and never had until wed. night. It was incredible! Very surreal, and just absolutely breathtaking. It's one of those events that really proves God's beauty to yo. My eyes were open so wide!
Summer has really been going fast. I leave in just a few weeks already! I'm not ready to go back. I'm not ready to leave my family- we still have so much that we have to do together.
Last night I was up till 5am working on a jacket for my client back in Savannah. I'm almost done. and then after that it's onto the dress. I should really start sewing here in a bit, finish at least one garment! haha. I suppose my rambling is due for an end here. Well,good night to you.
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