Trial & Error

what to do at midnight?... Well, here in good ol' Wisconsin we can drink beer, go cow-tipping, OR raid the pantries and taste everything! Which is exactly what we did...well, Miou did most of the tasting ( in Maud-size portions of course :) ) It was so cute. We had just gotten home and we could admit that we were tired, but as usual, we just didn't want to sleep. To us, sleep is simply a waste of time. So we brewed a pot of coffee (extra dark, just the way we like it,) sat out on the deck staring at the midnight sky just talking. After that, we searched the house for food. Some was odd, and some familiar, and some just filled with great child-hood memories ( i.e. the marshmallows in lucky charms,) and we nibbled our way through the night. I love this girl. She just cracks me up!


Tonight we a dinner party at her house in Milwaukee, just us girls. And it was so sweet. Maud prepared us all home-made spring rolls, which I have never had before, and they really were quite good. And she even baked a cake for desert. It looked delicious but unfortunately my stomach couldn't handle an ounce of anything else.

Right now she is trying to fall asleep, tomorrow is a big day.... it's her last day. :( I don't know what I'm going to do when she leaves. I mean, i suppose that life goes on as usual, but I'll be on cruise control, just getting by. With Maud and Karin, life is good again. Real good. I love these girls so much. Our friendship, is such a great thing. Here we are, seperated by land and water, miles apart, and not seeing one another for years and when we are reunited it's as if no time had ever come between us. That is true friendship. We are all here for one another and honest with one another. We're friends.

I apologize, because my mind has so many thoughts going on right now and I can't seem to focus on just one thing. This entry will most likely be a short one, and probably very random. OLE!

Last night, Karin stayed the night. We were having such a 'blah' day. Not sure why, but neither of us were motivated to do anything. Well... I know why, but it isn't something we want to talk about because it only makes matters worse. The three of us are being split apart again. It's the hardest thing to even think about. I see the eyes watering up when we mention the slightest bit of it and I feel my eyes start to flood. It's hard. I'm so blessed to have such beautiful people in my life. I learn so much from them. I laugh so much with them, and I smile. Have you ever caught your self fake smiling? From time to time I'll slap one on because I know it's what people want, but I never really paid much attention to it. And Maud has pointed out that these are our "real smiles." I didn't know that one could see the difference, but she can, and now I can too. Up until Europe, I hadn't really smiled. School just killed me. I knew it was rough while going through it, but now looking back, I see how miserable I was. I felt as though I had little, if anything, to live for. School, homework, school, homework. That was all I could do. And now I'm back home, and I remember why I smile. Sad, huh? I'm getting so sad to leave back for school. Right now everyone is in Colorado to set Emily up for school and I stayed behind to spend time with my foreigners. I miss my family so much and I know I'll be seeing them in a few days here. But the house is so big, and dark, and quiet and lonely. I'm used to the bare minimum of 8 people and 2 dogs running around the house and now I'm down to....me. When Karin and I got home last night, we placed our purses on the table and just exchanged a look of disappointment. It feels weird. And that just wast a good combination with our "blah-ness." To make things better, I baked her some cookies. She wanted them for a midnight snack- literally. Haha. I baked the cookis around 9h30/10h00 and she waited till 12h00am on the dot. She kept looking at the clock sighing until the digits went from 11h59 to 12h00. It was worth it, so she said.
Today, she and I decided to have a somewhat productive day because we assumed that a storm was headed our way- BOY were we wrong! Today could not have been more beautiful, 76 degrees, gentle breeze, and the clouds were dreamy! What did we do all day you ask? We worked on personal projects. I just about finished a garment I am working on for my freelance, and Karin read her book. It was nice.

I am listening to my itunes right now on shuffle, and I am thoroughly pleased with the songs that are playing. :) well, I am needing to write in Mauds journal now. So overall, Lately I have felt happy ( to have my best friends at my side again,) and really sad ( to know they are leaving again,) and now I'm pissed because i am getting eaten by this mosquito that I can hear but can't see or kill! AHHH! Well, good night world. schalff gut!